Shirow

@ Shirow @lemmy.zip

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7h ago

until you get spotted and go in guns blazing
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Shirow @lemmy.zip 7h ago
I've gotten some weird looks saddly. My guess is that it's because where I live.

9h ago

I thought E was supposed to decrease my libido

Honestly, my libido decreased a lot. But there was a lot of external factors. Today with well romantic feelings and finding myself again, (and the start of progesterone - Maybe it changed something too) it is more than before hrt.

17h ago

Can I drop my agender husk in here?

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Shirow @lemmy.zip 17h ago

Yep, looking awesome!

24h ago

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Shirow @lemmy.zip 24h ago

Oh so... Maybe there's hope for me too (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶)

24h ago

How did you come out to your family?

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Shirow @lemmy.zip 24h ago

Honestly. I tried to point out how happier I was now and that I already started my transition. Basically they could not dissuade me. I also pointed out how I hoped they would be alright with my transition. And added that my brother and sister already knew and are supportive.

(And... also that my divorce was not a result of my transition but the affirmation of the self - which led to my transition- ... I've denied my own identity in my previous relationship and prioritized the happiness of my ex-wife and did what I felt was necessary for the couple to work...)

Edit : also I had to try to make them understand what being "trans" meant in simple terms. Because the concept of gender for them was and probably still is just cisgender "female" or "male".

1d ago

How did you come out to your family?

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Shirow @lemmy.zip 1d ago

Honestly, I just made them sit (my parents) and asked them to hear me out and not stop me until I'm done talking. Didn't go as planned but the result was not the worst. Prepared a text to have a guideline.

I had plan B just in case I was kicked out.

My brother and sister already knew since I knew they would be allies.

2d ago

I'm confused, angry at myself and sad to make my wife go through this.

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Shirow @lemmy.zip 2d ago

I am fine with sharing an update

Well truth be told. My marriage is over. After more therapy session and some talk with friends I realised that I have my feeling had disappeared way before. My mind was stuck with the idea of duty and guilt. I still care about my ex well being and want her to be happy because she's a good person. But I can't be that person anymore. Honestly communication had always been a disfunctional. We tried a lot. I've been forced to do my CO for example. I've been cheated on too. To give you a general idea. Often after a "fight". I was forced to try to clear out everything. It was unbearable for her to wait to talk about it. To not "ok" with each other right away. She is impulsive saddly.

When I cry, I have trouble gathering my thoughts and make sense of everything. In these moments I had to explain everything right away about my feelings. I had to walk on eggshells because the time I told her how I feel, my feelings were invalid because she always found an explanation of why I shouldn't feel this way. Maybe there's some truth in it.

Most of the time I had no one to talk about my worries in my couple.

Well... what confirms me the most that the spark had died is that I felt romantic feeling towards another person recently. I've been shocked too how fast... and felt like a teenager over again. Something I haven't felt in a while.