How are we all doing? I'm very tired

I’m safe for now but I feel like this time is worse than the last few times we have had to deal with this shit. A lot of my family has fled from their homes, but everyone is staying with relatives, which is good. I personally have more urgent commitments and (no way around it) less money than in the 2024 war, so I haven’t been able to help at the shelters, and I feel a little guilty about it.

I honestly feel very hopeless. I feel like Lebanon will be amputated, and finally forced to kiss the ring of the butcher who did it. Many of my friends have left over the past decade, and I am scared about the war making it harder for me to move afterwards, as countries will look at us less like skilled migrants and more like refugees they don’t want. I’m just so fucking tired of this.