Losing my shit

Ah good. Got slightly tipsy last night. Now I can't post somewhere because I demöbiated part of myself. That wasn't just what I did here. I sent multiple emails to people last night. Texted my dad. Let them know how I feel.

I'm pissed off beyond measure.

My life partner is on Lemmy, falsely accusing me, and I had to publically apologize to him.

He assaulted me three times last night. I have to call him out. I have assaulted him many times, because I lose my shit with his bullshitting. He no longer has a computer. I made that decision before I got drunk, when he CHOSE to financially abuse me when I refused to order his drugs for him, lying through his teeth to me about how he can't use Amazon because his laptop isn't good enough WHILE FUCKING AMAZON WAS LOADED ON THE SCREEN!

I'm losing my fucking mind. I might become homeless again because this mother fucker. And his mom lied to me. And his dad plays dumb. My dad's silence speaks more wisdom to me than he ever has. My mom died when I was nine thanks to AIDS. The cops don't do anything. The neighbors hear all this shit, and they complain about how much weed he smokes. I don't want to drink. I don't want to smoke. I'm close to murdering him and killing myself.

BuT dOn'T dO aNyThInG bUt PrUnE yOuR sAfEsPaCe, MoDs

I live in Arizona. I have no emotional support. None. Horrifically abused by a monk pretended to be broken and takes no responsibility for anything. I have a hammer. He says his back is so bad now, he can't go outside...which is why I had to pay for his bike he broke riding carelessly. Well, I'll make him an honest man.

...no. This is just what I feel. Indignant. I have half the mind to just do what God says and to go out, get drunk, and get my ass arrested. Cuz I can say some shit and guarantee I get myself a job doing what I was clearly trained to do.

Which is get banned a lot, expressing myself, apparently. Which is too much for society. Guess I'll get some red paint and mark some families' front door, to ease their burden, as the Egyptians do. Hi Alex 3/3! Are you enjoying manipulating me here, too? Genuinely, are you Suma? Are you Izzy? THEY LIED TO ME TOO!

People followed me here to Lemmy World. Because I write my own stunts. Really, engage with me in this state, see what happens. Too afraid to really try Boo to make friends. That's because Pi Day in the cult I was in. I came in a human being that day. I was allowed, because they engineered this shit AROUND my sexuality. The FBI did, I mean. Unless they really were the CIA. Nah, the feeb aren't that competent. Retards in uniform, pretending to be Proud Boys or Muslim Extremists or huge, totally huge pedophiles on the internet.

But is THAT too much of a joke, taking the piss out of how God shit my life up? I can do nought but educate! I KNOW I am right, and wrong! Thus I'm right, as I know I have a Lord that forgives and punishes and so I am forgiven.