oh and even if you are leftist, and you are critical of leftistm or sympathic to non-leftists... well then you deserve to suffer and be in pain.

I have experienced this one too, and it's disheartening.

it's just all masked misandry where their rage at the social elites is projected onto the working class and younger people.

I mean I kind of get it, social elites are so well protected and out of reach that angst people attack anybody who appears like them in their closest proximity.

Anyway chin up we still have much more individual control over life than we think, Socializing is hard even more in developed countries and I don't know your background to suggest that, but try therapy or counseling if not financially troubled, try finding some sports or gym community too it helps, don't be hopeless there are still some people who are helpful and not hostile with misdirect anger. cheers!