My steps average is back up, eating still kind of hasty, sleep is improved by maybe an hour. Drank one average cup of coffee one morning out of curiosity, but otherwise none. Handled the “crush isn’t responding” anxiety relatively well.
We met briefly today, they poked me in the back and apologized for not responding, and I said I know what it’s like and that’s just how it is sometimes, and then we made some light chitchat. So they’re alive and appeared happy to see me. Who could have predicted this!?
I know their phone number is correct, because we did a test call when swapping. I know they have low days. I know they struggle with answering messages. Either of these reasons is valid enough on its own, and should calm me down.
…But there are also other possibilities: that they stood me up, or that they got into trouble. In both these cases there’s nothing I could do. (Except of course to have been a better person all along so nobody would stand me up, or to constantly be by their side to help them out of trouble 🤡)
It’s probably just a low day, and I sent them 2 short messages and attempted 1 call spread out over like 5 hours, which I hope is not too clingy or annoying.
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